Monday, June 29, 2009


hi. i wish i was the type of person who didn't need acceptance from everyone. i wish i didn't spend most of my time trying to figure out who i am and what my place in this world is. i just want to be able to be me. live each day for what it is and not worry about what the future holds. the present moment is such an amazing thing. there's nothing else like it and it's the only real thing in this world that is perpetually changing and infinite. i don't want my life to be determined by someone else's view on things. i want to be able to express how i feel without fear of judgment.
maybe it's okay to not be constantly worried about searching for ourselves. maybe we just do our best and through helping others, we find out who we are. maybe it's okay to sometimes let all your feelings and emotions go, and just dive into what's happening around us. and maybe it's okay to not have the right words all the time. maybe the right thing to say isn't always said through words, but through actions and thoughts.


Sunday, June 21, 2009

'Mallows Have A Way...

hi. so yesterday, at about noon, i get a text message from jared saying i need to go to food lion. now, yes. it was noon. food lion is about a two minute drive. and getting out of the house seemed like the right thing to do. but i was in my pajamas, and i was very sore from a night of unintentional moshing at an envy on the coast/anberlin/taking back sunday concert at the national. and my dad was already mad because i hadn't done anything since i had gotten back from london. but i asked him, and he said yes. so i get to food lion, and i find jared standing, looking at jell-o in aisle three. he has a full basket, and i've already missed the majority of his intensive shopping list. and all he has left is marshmallow cream/fluff/mess. he says he can't find it. we look everywhere. probably circling the store three times. finally, we walk into the organic section (next to the peanut butter and mexican delicacies) and find something called ricemallow fluff. we make fun of it. then a nice vegan girl asks if we're vegan. i told her i was when i was born, because my mother was, jared said he like meat.

finally, we got the bright idea of asking someone. and the unhealthy, a-organic 'mallow cream/fluff/mess was hidden behind the lance crackers. sneaky.

then we proceeded to the gas station, where we bought four lotto tickets, hoping to win a bunch to take us to london...sadly, we were let down.

thought of the day: love everyone. for exactly who they are.


Thursday, June 18, 2009

Back From the Land of Scones!

hi. i just got back from my trip to england and ireland with my grandparents, uncle, and cousin yesterday. the flights were crazy and dumb. and trying to get over there, we were left on the runway for three hours. it was a blast cousin and i had a lot of fun. and apparently, much to our amusement, over there, when they say Adidas, they say 'ahdeedahs'. we were at this mega sports store in oxford circle and this lady with a megaphone was calling customers in to see the giantmegablowout sale. they have Nikks. Pyoomas. and Ahdeedahs. lovely. and also, on the bus, as we were poking fun at the ahdeedahs, singing in operatically, this nice british old man told us he liked our singing so much, that we had a mind to stay on the bus and miss his stop. cheers mate.

i'm back home. and already want to go back. i'm planning a photography adventure for sometime late june with my friend, jared. we're going to go to london, stay with my uncle, and be immersed in the art scene of london, england.

okay. time to go re-familiarize myself with my besties. i haven't seen them in eight days, and it feels like twenty seven years. and of course, where better to have a loud, outright obnoxious reunion than the mall? then maybe a movie, and then planning our photographic, english accented adventure with jared. funnn day.


Monday, June 8, 2009

The First.

hi. this is my small, yet infinite, piece of the world. and no, i'm not dumb. i misspelled it for a reason. i am a very peace-oriented person. i promote non-violence.

a bit about me:
i live in virginia, in a small town. in my short seventeen years, i've experienced a lot. i've been to many different countries, and i love to be emersed in different cultures. i have two dogs, a crazy mother, and a hard-working, strong willed father. i take after my mother in a lot of ways, but i always make sure i've got my head together. i am addicted to movies, friends, and laughter. i can make people laugh, usually by accident. i just graduated this past saturday, and i figure now is the right time to make a memento of myself online. the online universe is huge, and i honestly never expect anyone to read this. except myself, when i'm old and senile. this is a way to express myself through writing.

photography. film. art. music. winterguard. it's me.

today. my mother asked me where the remote was. we looked for a while. we found it in the dishwasher. i was confused, while my mother commented, "oh yeah..."

tomorrow, i leave for london with my grandparents, uncle, and cousin. eight hour plane ride. joy.

my guard and myself. the best friend and i.

my usual cause of complications: my earring.

my often-occurring gangsterself.

and me.
off to go pick up the best friend for a night of well-mannered frivolity.